Who Do I Love More?

Just An Ordinary Girl Living Out Her Dreams.

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" I got this pimple on my chin,
pimple on my chin.
You already know,
Diggy who it is,
Diggy yeah he does it,
Diggy, yeah he buzzin’
Now they on my cousins” ~Diggy

— (via loveofdiggy)

Chapter 55


"You’re beautiful.." Mama said to Dominique.

"Thank you.." She smiled.

"Too bad you’re taken.."

Ma!" I interrupted.

"What?" She shot my a dirty look.

"Yeah, and I’m very happy." Dominique giggled.

"Too bad.." She sighed. "Chris needs someone like you in his life.."

"He’ll find someone, one of these days.."

"Hopefully you.." I murmured. Dominique looked at me.

"You say something?" She asked. I shook my head.


Mama likes her. That’s a good thing, now all I gotta do is get her all to myself. The rest of the girl went home or to their hotels, they were wore out so they just went home. Besides, I really wasn’t Dominique to meet my mom.

At around 3am, Dominique left. She said she was getting tired and she had to leave.


"I’m gone.." I got up and walked toward the door.

"You don’t have to go.." Zendaya grabbed my arm, intending to intertwine our finger but I snatched away.

"Actually I do.." I opened the door. "You comin?" I asked Spin.

"Yeah man, let’s go.." He got up & left with me. "Damn bro, this bitch is followin yo ass.." He laughed. "That kiss must’ve been that good."

"Man shut up!" I opened my car door. "I ain’t got time for yo shit tonight.."

"Yeah iight.." He chuckled.

I can’t believe this shit. Zendaya was the reason Dominique and I broke up the first damn time. I been trynna avoid this bitch ever since. I can’t risk losing Dominique… Not again.

Yes Zendaya was the girl I kissed in Cleveland, we ran into each other and hung out for a little bit. I never intended on kissed her, it just happened. Just like me falling in love with Dominique or falling for her when I first saw her, it just happened. I’m glad it did though, she’s incredible.

"Where we going man?" Spin asked.

"Just shut up!" I yelled. "Fuck!!"

"Bro chill the fuck out. It’s not that damn serious.."

It’s not that serious?" I questioned. "My nigga, she tried to jeopardize my relationship with Dominique. Really? It’s not that serious?" I sighed. "I’m just glad she forgave me."

"Cause you fucked the shit outta her.." He laughed.

"Not even that.." I shook my head. "She was actually being nice and calm and lowkey flirting before we had sex. I think you was gonna or already forgave me."

"Then why you fuck?"

"It felt right, you know what I’m saying? If I didn’t.." I shrugged. "Ion know…things wouldn’t be the same.."

"Oh.." He laughed as he nodded. "You just wanted to fuck.."

"I did lowkey.. I ain’t even finna lie.." We laughed. "But that not the point… I love her too much to lose her again." He nodded.

I drove to Chris & Kae’s house. I need his opinion on what to do. I can’t lose Dominique & I refuse too! I would call my dad, but it’s 3 in the morning. He’s probably sleep..

Once we got to their house, the lights were on… Is this a bad time?

"Why are we at Chris’ house?" Spin asked as I turned the car off.

"Unlike you, he won’t clown about that." I told him. "This shit is serious." I got out the car and walked up to the door. "Hopefully they’re up.." I rang the doorbell. The door swung open.

"Well look who it is? Mr. Smooth..” Kae smiled. “What brings you here at 3, almost 4 in the morning?”

"Is Chris around?" I asked. Her whole facial expression changed.

"Diggy what’s wrong?" She asked. Then Chris walked up.

"Babe, who’s at th—" He opened the door all the way. "Get in here.." Spin and I walked in & into the living room.

"Will someone please tell me what’s going on?" Kae yelled.

"If you don’t want ya night ruined, I’d advise you leave.." Chris told her. She rolled her eyes & walked upstairs. "So.."

"She was there..in the studio..the girl I cheated on Dominique with." I spoke fast.


"Karrueche!!" Chris yelled. "In the damn room.."

"Urgh!!" She slammed the door.

"Who was she?"

"Zendaya.." I mumbled, looking away.

"Coleman?" He shook his head. "Dumb ass!"

"Thanks.." I sighed. "I thought you were suppose to be helpin me!?" He sighed.

"Your best bet is callin her bro.."

"Ion think that’s a good idea.." Spin said. "Have you seen this girl mad?" He shook his head. "And you don’t want to! Trust me."

"Dig call her!" Chris told me.

"This is a bad idea.." I pulled my phone out my pocket & call her. "If she start to yellin, I’m tellin her that it was yo idea."


"Hello?" I answered my phone as I walked into my hotel room.

"Hey babe." Diggy said.

"Hey baby.." I smiled. "What’s up?"

"Uh.. We uh..we need to talk." He stuttered.

"Baby what’s wrong?" I asked, confused as I walked into the bedroom.

"Uh..you remember Cleveland?"

"I don’t wanna talked about that.." I sat on my bed.

"It’s was Zendaya.."

"Zendaya?" I yelled. "Zendaya Coleman?"

"Baby I’m sorry.."

"I can’t even right now." I shook my head. "Right when I finally decide to drop the shit, you bring it right back up. What the hell!?" I yelled, trying to hold back my tears. "I can’t believe you!"

"She came onto me! You remember that?" He rose his voice.

"Goodbye Daniel!!" I hung up & cried.

This is just perfect. He cheats on me.. not with just anyone, but with Zendaya fuckin Coleman! What the hell!? And to think I was gonna let that go. Ha negative! I will forever hold that shit over his head.

She is so beautiful compared to me. Like whyyyyy???? I am so over him, I’m over this, it’s time for me to face fuckin reality. I cried so much in a minute, then my phone rang. I sniffled, wiped my tear and answered the phone.

"Dominique stop crying.."

"How’d you know I was crying?" I sniffed.

"Dig had the phone on speaker.."

"What the fuck?" I yelled through my tears. "Chris you were in on this shit too?"

"Come on Dominique, I’m not stupid."

"Why the hell you look at me when you say that shit?" Dig said.

"Cause you’re fuckin stupid!” I yelled.

"Baby please.." He said.

"I’m not talkin to you!” I sniffed. “Where’s Kae?”

"Upstairs.." I heard Spin.

"KAE!!" Chris yelled.

"What do you want?" She yelled back.

"Ya girl mad at us.."

"Good!" She said. I giggled. "Gimme this damn phone! Hey baby, you okay?"

"No.." I whined. "He cheated on me with Zendaya.."

"You son of a bitch!!" She yelled.

"Would you stop hittin me!" Dig yelled. "I get even of Dominique hittin me.."

"You deserve it!" I said.

"I’m outta here." Kae said. "But you guys looked so happy when you were down here."

"Because we were.."

"And now?"

"I don’t know.." I shrugged. "I’m just in my feelings right now. I really miss him." She laughed.

"You act you ain’t gon see him next week."

"What part of in my feelings didn’t you get?” I laughed as I shook my head. “I have bipolar emotions, yeah I’ll admit to that.. But I don’t know..”

"Then why are you so hard on him?"

"Because of shit like this.." I sighed. "So he’d know what to expect.."

"To expect?" She asked.

"Pregnancy….marriage.." I sighed.

YOU’RE PREGNANT!?" She yelled.

"No! No no no!!" I said. "I’m not pregnant.. Not yet atleast." I smiled.

The thought of being pregnant and by Diggy, it’d made me smile. Having a little Diggy, a little life we can share & love and who’ll love us right back. Our future together, getting married, being together for the rest of our lives. That’s all I ever wanted, but when he does stupid shit that dreams on a hiatus.

"Aww Mommy Dominique.." Kae cooed over the idea. "That’s cute!" I smiled.

"She’s pregnant!?" I heard the guys say. Holy shit..

"Give that back!" Kae yelled.

"Baby you’re pregnant?" Diggy asked. I giggled.

"No.. Not yet." I smiled. He sighed.

"Baby I’m so sorry.." He said apologetically.

"I know you are.." I said almost bluntly. "But that not the point…you shouldn’t’ve let her get that far."

"I know.." He sighed.

"I love you with all my heart Daniel…I’m only hard on you because I care!"

"Yeah, I know.." He sighed again. "I love you too."

"You better!" I smiled. He chuckled. "Look, it’s almost 5 in the morning and I’m super tired.."

"Yeah.." He laughed. "Later beautiful.."

"Not as beautiful as Zendaya.." I joked.

"Oh would you let that go!?" He laughed.

"Sorry bro, I don’t think I can.." I giggled.

"Night babe.."

"I love you.." I smiled.

"And I love you." And he hung up.

"So much.." I murmured to myself, laid down & fell asleep.


Bum bum bum bum! The sound of an annoying ass alarm woke me up. I got this massive a headache & this alarm ain’t making it not better.

I walked in Dominique’s room, this girl is out but peaceful and like a baby kind of. What time did she get back? I walked all the way in & it was her phone ringing…Diggy.. Should I answer it? Oh what the hell..

"Hello?" I said painfully.

"Uh Alexus?" He questioned. "You iight?"

"No.. What is it?"

"Where’s Dominique?"

"Sleep.." I looked at her and she turned in her sleep.

"What hotel y’all in?" He asked.


"And the room number?"

"And I repeat.. Why?" I rose my voice. I grunted.

"I got a lotta apologizing to do.." He sighed.

"The Omni Hotel.." I sighed. "Room 434."


"Uh huh.." I hung up & put her phone back on the nightstand.

Around 20 minutes had passed and there was a knock at the door. I already knew who it was. I opened the door.

"She’s in there.." I pointed toward the room Dominique was sleeping in.

"Thanks again for this." He said.

"Yeah.." I sighed as I closed the door. He walked off and into Nique’s room.


"Im a story teller so I just write about past experiences Ive been through. Or what Im dealing with right now. My music is a reflection of me."- Diggy


"When I envision something, there is no way to tell me I CAN’T. Once I see it I’m determined and once I’m determined, I’m conquering." - Diggy


"Check my million dollar swag, I tell ‘em 10-4 cause they wanna copy that."- Diggy


Someone please tell me why Daniel is freestyling about that pimple on his chin?? 😂😂

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